Thursday, October 27, 2005

Diseases and I!

Nowdays, Arjuna without migraine is equivalent to Rava Uppuma without Rava! For the past 4 days, I have got 3 migraine attacks - 2 on my right and today on the left side! This is the 5 th attack in 3 weeks! Usually at this time of the year - I start getting this stupid disease! Its such a pain! As soon as my eyes blur and I see some divine aura around me - I know that my friend has come to strike me! I immediately put 2 tablets of paracetamol - but still nothing helps. I am planning to go and see my GP aka doctor today! The main problem why I have been avoiding him is - he thinks that I am 'quite' paranoid about diseases and I am just imagining things! Whenever I go to him - I start saying I could have nephritis in the kidney, Biliary Atresia in the liver, Type B diabetes, left ventricular heart failure etc etc.. Moreover I suggested him some medicines and and he went what??? He requested me not to come to his clinic for a year! Maybe he is jealous that I am more knowledgeable than him!!

I have a severe paranoia when it comes to diseases from my early age of 14! I have been taking regular blood tests (Sugar, Blood Cholestrol (LDL,HDL, Trigylcerides)) every year ( and sometimes my cholestrol levels are over the roof!) and recently I have started having ECGs done. Next year I plan to have a MRI scan done to my heart and it could cost me a lot of money - that reminds me I should save some! I take garlic tablets daily, eat Benecol butter that is supposed to be a cholestrol buster, do exercises (????) and most importantly I regret and feel sad after eating junk food!

Now I am worried that I may have some problems with my insulin. My blood pressure is always low (113/66 mmHg - last year it was 107/57 mmHg!) with a pulse rate of 60 which my doctor in India says its good - but I am not quite happy with his answer! Yesterday when I was doing some research on low blood pressure I found out that low blood pressure could be caused due to diabetes as well! And now I am pissed off! Low blood pressure and migraine - something suspicious now! I need to have my body scrutinized asap!

For those who are wondering why on earth I am like this - as some of you(Parvati, Viji and Aatma) would know - my father is a heart transplant patient and kidney failure patient who lives on dialysis! Yesterday the doctor has told that his ventricle has narrowed (due to the asymmetry causing calcium deposits) and he may have to undergo an operation but there is a risk involved since he is a heart transplant patient! Now you would know why I am like this! I even had my own private medical insurance cover paying a whopping 45 pounds per month - then discontinued it after some advice! I guess its high time I get back my insurance again!

-- to be contd!

32 Comments:

At October 27, 2005 3:00 PM, Blogger Raju said...

Sorry to know about ur father. May his health get better and stable.

IMHO, if you visit gym regularly and keep a watch on diet (5 courses of fruits/vegetables a day, etc.) you will feel far better in just a month.. All the best!!

 
At October 27, 2005 3:21 PM, Blogger SongOfSoul said...

Dear Aarjuna,
I agree with Raju, Lots of greens and fibre containing vegetables, pulses, and good workout in the morning and nice yoga in the evening. Take care of Body, Soul and Mind, It is very important. You can lose anything, but not health.

with best wishes
Suman

 
At October 27, 2005 5:54 PM, Blogger Jo said...

Migrane, go see the doc fast. But hey, you worry too much about all this. Perhaps you need a break from work or whatever you are stuck up with. :-) Dont worry too much buddy. Nothing bad's gonna happen.

And am really sorry to hear about your father. I hope he gets better soon.

 
At October 27, 2005 7:00 PM, Blogger Ganesh said...

Thambi udambai pathukappa
Health is Wealth

 
At October 27, 2005 7:19 PM, Blogger Kasthuri said...

The necessity of health is felt only when we are sick. Most of the time we ignore abt our well being and repent about it later. Try to do some kind of yoga daily(atleast surya namaskar, - should be pretty easy), which will help in maintaining helath and reducing stress. Sorry to hear about the problem of your father. I sincerely hope he gets well soon. Keep praying and He'll help us in overcoming all the troubles.

 
At October 27, 2005 8:39 PM, Blogger Gnana Kirukan said...

Raju - thanks for ur concern and advice :) - wuld definitely try to follow it :)

 
At October 27, 2005 8:40 PM, Blogger Gnana Kirukan said...

Dear Sumon - thanks a lot :) - Yeah I need to go to the gym regularly from now onwards..Maybe should start learning Kriya Yoga.. lets c :)

 
At October 27, 2005 8:46 PM, Blogger Gnana Kirukan said...

Parvati - thanks a ton for ur lovely advice :) - yes medical care is free here - btw I am not a PR - I am still on a student visa - but still its free - but the problem is the waiting time - If I need to have a blood test done - I have to wait 2-3 weeks! Horrid! Everytime I visit Chennai - I get my body checked up - I was planning to do it this time also - but unfortunately I cant go to Chennai since my visa is only single entry! I realized this after booking my ticket! So I had to postpone my flight to next year! Maybe I am sitting in front of the computer for so long - that is causing these migraines..

Sure - I am going to be more careful from nowonwards - and wuld u believe I refused myy favourite apple pie with icecream today at my cousin's house after the SAI bhajans!This is the first time I ever refusing a sweet! I am quite proud of my achievement! Hope this continues!

See I told u - my life is not that happy and easy - I have almost everything in life - except mental peace! I guess I can never be happy - that is one reason I am hesitating to get married! I dont want to spoil a girl's life!

 
At October 27, 2005 8:47 PM, Blogger Gnana Kirukan said...

Jo - thanks a lot boss for ur advice and concern for my father :) - sure - I am going to the doctor tommorow..

 
At October 27, 2005 8:47 PM, Blogger Gnana Kirukan said...

Ganesh - saringa anna :) - romba thanks boss :)

 
At October 27, 2005 8:48 PM, Blogger Gnana Kirukan said...

Kasthuri - thanks a lot :) - as I said to Sumon - I am thinking of starting Kriya yoga and some breathing techniques..I have learnt sudharshana Kriya - and maybe I should start that again..lets c :)

 
At October 27, 2005 10:41 PM, Blogger Aatma said...

Arjuna inna da iddhu, My Bro and scared of diseases comeon - i don't expect that from you - Sarath kumar body should not worry about such things - Take care of your health - it is important but going to the extent of imaginning things - not good. Every year do your physical - above that nothing else - if you have migraine attack - go to your doctor and take only medicine for that -

Seriously dude the path that u are
choosing is a scary one - stop it now. Already once you cross the age of 35 everything will come on its own - by u getting paranoid - u are bringing the pain before hand.

Remember Stress is a bigger killer than all these disease - presently your major problem is Stress and that too unwanted one - Yellam Krishna melle potu - life enjoy pann

 
At October 27, 2005 10:48 PM, Blogger Unknown said...

Arjuna, its more of a mind block than the real health problem.The problem to overcome fear is face it.Your fear comes from partial reading/listening about diseases and you assume.First leave this habit.Either don't read about diseases or read abt them thorougly.(use the site webmd.com).

 
At October 28, 2005 2:09 AM, Blogger Maayaa said...

ippo ore sickness season.. ellarukkum edho udambu sari illai...

 
At October 28, 2005 3:36 AM, Blogger SongOfSoul said...

Dear Arjuna,
Slow down buddy, slow down, Chill out. No hurry at all in life., Youe mental peace is in u. Close ur eyes for 10 minutes and sit calmly friend. Let all the distrubaces come and hit you, Intitiall u will feel like reacting to them, thats OK, Let them disturb u, but continue doing that and after a while they will fade off...
Spend a lot of time in Nature, go for a nice walk on a river back, lake or sea. Sit in the park and observe kids playing (not to say the beautiful girls :-)). Weekend just grab ur camera and go out alone into a nature spot. Photrgraphy is one heck of a relaxing hobby. It will connect ur iner self with Nature what I consider is God.
Bhajans and all the rituals we do can help to a certain extent., But there is God in u in the nature, Awaken that Buddy, slowly and relaxedly....

All the health problems we have are becasue if Energy imbalance in our bodies. There are Chakras in our body. Chakras are nothing but the nerve plexus around our Glands. These are our receptors to the external environment, They percieve information from the outisde and generate impluses in our body and these produce the hormones which pretty much control our emotions, reactions, physiological changes. More negative energy in the environment and more stress, causes more of these hormones to be produced or less of these to be produced, causing Hyper and Hypo situations , like High BP or Low BP, OR whatever disease conditions we see, high insulin, low insulin....

There are 2 ways to handle this:
1. Good mental and breathing exercises, and slowing down the life, AWareness is the Key again Paartha. Believe me, this word AWARENESS is very powerful. That forms the basis of spiritual way of life.

2. Life style - Good and healthy food, good people to hang around, positive attitude, Hope, Faith and Love.

So these can balance your energy levels and keep u fit. All the disease conditions we see are life style and energy related.

SO please please slow down, observe, be aware and eat good food...
Sorry if I have crossed my lines in blabbering

with best wishes,
Suman

 
At October 28, 2005 4:06 AM, Blogger Ram C said...

I have heard about many people who are so obsessed with taking medicine and assessing on their own about so many ills and solution for it.. You are the next person.

But, take care without worrying much.. Even if you are a medical student (which I don't know), leave it to someone else - well qualified to advise you.... Sorry to note down your Dad's state. Take care..

 
At October 28, 2005 6:06 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi,

I came to this blog for the first time.. It is nice, I like the way u write...

For severe head ache like this., Walk in fresh air (U may shout, how to do it?) But, that really helps...when u walk in a green area, more blood is circulated to head and hence more oxygen which reduces the head ache... This is an instant cure. Infact, put disprin water and drink it. which controls head ache at once.

For permanent cure, Yoga is the best solution.. I am practising for the last 5 months and I feel good in all the aspects. 20-30 minutes yoga 4 times a week is enough.. Particularly KapalBakthi... U don't even need more time and all.. Try it...

 
At October 28, 2005 6:38 AM, Blogger Narayanan Venkitu said...

Sad to see you with so many health problems.

Migraines - They can be controlled if you take regular Multi-vitamins and if you meditate.

I would advise you to watch your weight and go down atleast 10 pounds below your standard weight..which would relieve most of your problems.!!

I am also a little bit like you..I should say. Are you a VIRGO by any chance??>

 
At October 28, 2005 7:14 AM, Blogger Gnana Kirukan said...

Narayana sir - first of all I dont have any health problems except migraine :) - I am just trying to be over cautious with my health that's all :)

No I am not a Virgo :) - I am Aries..

 
At October 28, 2005 7:15 AM, Blogger Gnana Kirukan said...

Aatma - nanmba thanks a lot brother :)..Yeah - I shall follow ur advice :) - no worries bro :)

 
At October 28, 2005 7:16 AM, Blogger Gnana Kirukan said...

Cipher - well said :) - sure wuld do :)

 
At October 28, 2005 7:16 AM, Blogger Gnana Kirukan said...

priya - ungalukum udambu sari illaya?

 
At October 28, 2005 7:18 AM, Blogger Gnana Kirukan said...

Dear Sumon - thanks for ur wonderful comments again :) - no ur not blabbering - ur making sense :)..I will definitely try to follow ur advice - thanks once again boss :)

btw r u a doctor or a doctorate?

 
At October 28, 2005 7:19 AM, Blogger Gnana Kirukan said...

Ram - thanks a lot for ur concern :)

 
At October 28, 2005 7:19 AM, Blogger Gnana Kirukan said...

Lakshmi - thanks a lot for popping in and giving me some useful tips :) - thanks - wuld definitely try ur tips and yoga :)

 
At October 28, 2005 7:20 AM, Blogger Gnana Kirukan said...

Ambi - yes I have done sudharshana kriya before - but stopped it - maybe I should restart it :)

 
At October 28, 2005 7:25 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Arjuna,
Hope your father's condition improves..
dude dude dude...put one fullstop to this paranoia- I have passes through a state when I thought I had every new condition that I read about (lol).
as far as Heredity is concerned I have a lot of inherited wealth (read illnesses) but I am keeping everything under check by following Aharaniyama and some amount of calm observation.
chill out dude..
I was left to lie in bed for quite a few months with no clues as to when I would walk straight again.. now I am quite normal thanks to yoga (Narayana's timely intervention needless to say).I spent the time not worrying like this ....not because of any esoteric reason but for the simple fact that worrying kills.
also like Parvati says take a battery of tests to calm yourself down.
also I read your previous post...enna Arjuna, ivvalavu tension agitation thevaiya...must you divide your persona into a saint and a lustful sinner (FOR NARAYANA'S SAKE WHEREVER THERE IS FRAGMENTATION- SPLIT- DICHOTOMY ETC THERE IS ALWAYS CONFLICT)
OBSERVE YOURSELF AND AS PARVATI SAYS APPEAL TO YOUR CHOSEN DIVINITY TO CONTROL YOUR SENSES.
ALSO SETTLING DOWN IN "ONE" GOOD RELATIONSHIP CALLED MARRIAGE MAY BE QUITE THE RIGHT THING FOR YOU.
TO GET RID OF YOUR PAINFUL IDEAS ABOUT SEX OU MUST FIRST RESOLVE THIS INTERNAL CONFLICT AND APPROACH THE ISSUE FROM A RATIONAL STANDPOINT. FIRST HARMONISE YOUR PERSONA AND THEN SUBORDINATE SEXUAL DESIRE (WHICH IS NOT SOME NEGATIVE THING FOR NARAYANA'S SAKE) TO LOVE - THEREBY controlling it in the most reasonable manner possible.
I am no stranger to sexual desire myself and I do not shy away from discussing it with rational people and as far as my parents are concerned I keep nothing from them (Honesty is something my father taught me as a kid and thankfully I learnt the lesson) .
I have observed the pangs of desire when they inundate my body and found a way to understand them and from understanding is born true mastery - not from repression and spiritual shenanigans.
I am a bioscience student and I am also familiar with psychology to a certain extent - therefore my persepctive on sex is not coloured by considerations of piety - at the same time I am completely in support of the notions of Dharma and strict monogamy - therefore I guess I am able to handle it when it surges from within.
besides Arjuna when you go to sleep some centres in the brain can be activated when you are partially asleep - resulting in sexual inhibitions being blown off - will you worry yourself sick over this-- come on dude try to observe yourself and not divide your persoanlity onto a saint and a sinner.
besides from what I make out of your writing you muat not take up Brahmacharya or sainthood - it is not your dharma (nor mine).
find some one you love (for reasons over and above skin), get married and lead a life in accordance with Dharma as an offering unto Lord Krishna (Or Shiva according to your preference).
please don't waste tme on glamourous women- I strongly condemn the galmourisation of women as it amounts to further subjugation and nothing else.
stop worrying and observe
find the solution and act
action ends conflict

in the end

SARVAM SRIKRISHNAARPANAMASTHU!

 
At October 28, 2005 8:21 AM, Blogger Chakra said...

Take care of your health Arjuna.

 
At October 28, 2005 8:23 AM, Blogger Mysorean said...

Arjuna,

I don't know about insurance my friend. But you surely need faith! Complete faith.

God is with you!

 
At October 29, 2005 4:07 AM, Blogger Venky Krishnamoorthy said...

Arjuna, Hope things works out well for you and your family.

 
At October 29, 2005 3:50 PM, Blogger Gnana Kirukan said...

Anand - WOW - OK - that was great :)

"besides Arjuna when you go to sleep some centres in the brain can be activated when you are partially asleep - resulting in sexual inhibitions being blown off - will you worry yourself sick over this"

I never knew this funda :) - thanks :)

 
At October 29, 2005 3:51 PM, Blogger Gnana Kirukan said...

Chakra - thanks a lot :)

Adi - Thanks buddy :)

Venky - thanks a lot :)

 

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